I AM BETWEEN THE DEVIL AND THE DEEP BLUE SEA

Once again i caught myself choosing from two no good enough options. I tend to gamble everything in exchange to the 'might be' happiness. That's how much I long for my happiness and contentment in life. I wanna be in one place doing one thing once and for all. Am fed up with how the society is treating me. Is it really that hard to be happy? Is it really something that can't be get overnight? I experimented alot of things that might bring me or even just lead me to the path of happiness i am craving for quite sometime.

There was this time i looked blankly in a face of a person 7 years older than me and started picturing myself on her age. Disaster went into the picture. I don't wanna see myself at her age without nothing. I wanna achieve something at this early for I know I have all the capabilities.

I am dwelling between my own happiness versus everyone else's happiness. Life can be really cruel sometimes but without it I will never see how great my life could have been...

I AM ME

We are the masters of ourselves, no one can tell us what we can or cannot do. We can never be slaved by psychic vampires wandering around. As long as you believe in yourself no one can put you down. When you started believing, no one can stop you from doing anything you want. Anything you want to achieve, but when you let people get into your life in a way they will be dictating things that's need to be done well, you can start asking your name again you may not realize it wasn't you anymore.

A thing called " destiny "

" Everything happens for a reason.."A belief I strongly agree...You just don't slip in a banana peel without a reason, it gives you a certain lesson that once you've gone through with it make sure the next time you see a banana peel on the floor you won't step on it....avoid it...or better yet pick it up so no one falls on the same trap as you did before. Same with things we encounter - things we call "problems" or "trials" or any word related to hardships in life...these happens for a reason...I once read a poem questioning the existence of God..You always pray to be wealthy but instead of being wealthy to acquire everything you need and be prestigious you became poorer than ever...it only teaches you that money will never acquire everything and you need to strive more and do good in everything to be prestigious...you ask for good health to beat the others but instead you became weaker than ever...it only teaches you that disciplining your self with the help of sacrifices will earn you the best health...Things are always meant to happened...I am writing this for no reason at all but to those who will read this can be changed in some perspectives...this might have been written in a purpose...purpose of making you see those you don't see...or making you realize things has its purposes...